I was away for sometime, busy or rather lazy with the soul sucking life. Life was revealing all its cruel facades one by one.. Amidst all this hustles, Love continues to bloom like it does always.. And Elvis keeps Singing..
Wise men say,
Only fools rush in.
But I can’t help fallin in love with you.
Shall I say,
Would it be a sin?
If I can’t help falling in love with you.
Like a river flows,
Surely to the sea,
Darling so it goes,
Somethings are meant to be.
Take my hand,
Take my whole life,too.
For I can’t help falling in love with you
“I want sometime for me and myself”
“ Would you please leave me alone”
“Let me take a long walk, alone”
“I will pack my bag and go into the wild, just like Chris McCandless does in the movie”
Some of these lines you often hear from people around you. Or you might’ve said to someone. Whenever you feel sad or low spirit. You often tend to move away from people & utter above mentioned lines. This isn’t your fault. Most of the damage is done by movies (Mostly Bollywood). They show loneliness like an eternal quest. And people, eager to buy whatever moviemakers sell. Undergo the same phase just to know that how pathetic they are.
It is shown very nicely in the TV show FRIENDS. Joey decides to stay alone and moves out of Chandler’s apartment, eventually comes back and tells ‘I liked to have some space for me & time for my thoughts but, I don’t have as many thoughts as you think ’:)
Root cause for loneliness is depression & the worst part!, we try to find solace in lonliness and end up being more depressed. Guys, whatever is bothering you, just stop obsessing on the problem. And, rather find the way to get out of it. Being emotional is good. That’s what makes us human. At the same time, we should not forget, intelligence is also an attribute of human beings 🙂
Make as many friends as possible. Find friends in strangers & increase your reach. Then you feel more secured and happy. As and when you start embracing loneliness, leave alone the new friends, possiblities are more that you lose the people you already have. People are greatest assets, ask TCS 🙂
All I wanna say is that loneliness is not and was never a solution for depression. Share the problem with people who care for you & you would be amazed with the solutions that comes in your way, which you never thought of.
Bottom line is – Loneliness is just a state of mind, you can be lonely & surrounded by a sea of people. It’s not you going to someplace or being alone.
On a closing note: Do not listen to patho songs when you are broken. They never soothe you. Rather, listen to some enthralling ones, Grab a bottle of a drink (which ever you feel suitable) & lay down your soul to the Rock Music.
Disclaimer: Below narrative is based on the story of the movie 3:10 to Yuma. Some of the dialogs are presented as it is to present the best. Lead characters Ben Wade & Dan Evans are acted by Russell Crowe and Christian Bale respectively.
Ben Wade dodges bullet into Charlie Prince’s heart in a point- blank.
There was Ben Wade tricky and famed outlaw, Rancher Dan Evans & a train to Yuma prison at 3.10 where Ben’s gonna be hanged up strait. Long story short, Evans agrees to escort coldblooded Wade to the train station in the town of Contention for the money of $200. Evans is in desperate need of money to save his farm.
En Route, certain events happen which brings Evans closer to Wade. Wade tries all his cunning, ill desired tricks to manipulate Evans. Nonetheless, all of which would be in vein. They pass through toughest canyons, mountain ranges, through the region of apache killers. In this course of time, Wade kills some of his captors, saves Evans’ life and gets his life saved by Evans from apache killers. Apache killers were with great vengeance on Wade since he slayed the brother of their head right in front of him. And finally, Wade, Evans, William-14 year old gun slinging son of Evans & Railroad representative Mr. Butterfield reaches a hotel in Contention City.
Best part of the story begins now.
1’o Clock, watch ticks. Train’s gonna arrive at the station half mile away by 3.10.
By this time Wade’s monstrous gang arrives in the contention city to rescue Wade. Charlie Prince, a grotesque sharp shooter is the head of the gang, who kills the policemen ruthlessly, who were guarding Wade when they surrender to him for their lives.
Wade and Evans sitting empty bridal suite of Hotel in the contention city. Evans holding a shot gun, Wade is calm and lying carelessly on the bed. His face and attitude shows a great assurance that none in the world can take him to the train. Not even Evans.
Ben Wade: What are you gonna to do with your $200 now, Dan? Now, that the rains are coming.
Dan Evans: I owe people money Wade, that drought left me in the hole.
Ben Wade: What do you think about double that money? You could pay your debts. Buy a hundred cows. Build a new barn.
Dan Evans: How do you reckon I’m going to do that?
Ben Wade: Just lay down your gun and let me walk out the door. It’s worth $400 (?)
Dan Evans: Is that what you reckon my price is?
Ben Wade: No, I reckon it’s a thousand One thousand dollars
Dan Evans: Isn’t that kind of reckless of you Wade? Seeing that… Hmmm. You’re so sure that your crew is coming to get you
Ben Wade: Oh, they’re coming, Dan. Sure as God’s vengeance, they’re coming. But I just like to do things easy. Imagine what you can do with $1000, Dan? You can hire a couple of ranch hands. Your boys could go to school, grow up smart. What about Alice? She would be the proud wife of a bonafide Arizona rancher. All you’ve got to do is say yes.
Dan Evans: Will you give me a bank note, Wade? Or will you be kind enough to make a deposit for me? You tell me, Wade. How will I account for that amount of money? What will I tell people when I spend it? That you got the jump on me, you escaped, and somehow I got a fortune
Now, Wade turns to William,
Ben Wade: They’re gonna kill you and your father, William they’re gonna laugh while they do it. I think you know that.
William Evans: Call ’em off.
Ben Wade: Why should I?
William Evans: Because you’re not all bad.
Ben Wade: Yes, I am.
William Evans: You saved us from those Indians.
Ben Wade: I saved myself.
William Evans: You got us through the tunnels. You helped us get away.
Ben Wade: If I had a gun in them tunnels, I would have used it on you.
William Evans: I don’t believe you.
Ben Wade: Kid, I wouldn’t last five minutes leading an outfit like that if I wasn’t as rotten as hell.
Evans sends his son back home with the officer Butterfield with an assurance that he’ll take Wade to the train at any cost and asks for a word from officer that no one touches his family and there will be water flowing through his land & a $1000. And, asks his son to look after the family, in case something happens.
Evans gets out of the hotel with Wade, hearing the train’s siren. After a hustle and rustle with Wade’s gang, Evans cracks down with the bullets and blast wounding his body recklessly. But, never gives up.
Ben Wade: I can’t do this no more, Dan.
Dan Evans: I’m putting you on that train, Wade
Ben Wade: I’m going back! Your boy is gone, hero. Ain’t nobody watching no more. You still got that one good leg, why don’t you use it to get on home?
Dan Evans: I have never been no hero, Wade. Only (action?) I’ve seen, it was a retreat … my foot got shot off by one of my own men. You try telling that story to your boy … see how he looks at you then
Ben Wade: Well, as long as we’re making confesions. I’ve been to Yuma Prison before. Twice, Escaped twice too.
Wade gets into train on his own to fulfill rancher Evans desire. In this right moment, Charlie dodges series of bullets back to back into Evans’ body.
Charlie Prince: For a one legged rancher, … he’s one tough son of a gun.
Charlie hands Wade, his Gun. Wade shoots Charlie Prince and his very own gang and gets into the train to Yuma. Evans dies in the arms of his son.
I know it’s a very bad narration in my part. Please forgive me for the same.
All I wanted to convey is just get into Evans’ & Wade’s shoes and reconcile yourselves. In this materialistic and manipulative world adulterating very pure emotions, a rancher & a outlaw shows how to outlive for what you believe, within your boundaries.
ಓರ್ವ ಸನ್ಯಾಸಿಯನ್ನು ಕೈತಪ್ಪಿ ಓರ್ವ ಸಿಪಾಯಿ ಭ್ರಾಂತಿವಶನಾಗಿ ಕೊಂದುಬಿಟ್ಟ. ೧೮೫೭ರ ಮಾತಿದು. ಕ್ರಾಂತಿಯ ದಿನಗಳು. ಓರ್ವ ಮೌನಿ ಸನ್ಯಾಸಿ ಬೆತ್ತಲೆಯಾಗಿ ಅಂಗ್ರೇಜರ ಪಾಳಯದಲ್ಲಿ ಹೋಗುತ್ತಿದ್ದ. ಸಿಪಾಯಿಗಳು ಆತನನ್ನು ಹಿಡಿದು ’ಯಾರು ನೀನು?’ ಎಂದು ಕೇಳಿದರು. ಆದರೆ ಅವನು ಮೌನಿ; ಉತ್ತರಿಸಲಿಲ್ಲ. ಉತ್ತರಿಸದಿದ್ದುದರಿಂದ ಆತನ ಮೇಲೆ ಸಂಶಯ ಹೆಚ್ಚಾಯಿತು. ಅವನ ಮೇಲೆ ಸಂದೇಹಿಸಿ ಓರ್ವ ಅಂಗ್ರೇಜಿ ಸಿಪಾಯಿ ಒಂದು ಭಲ್ಲೆಯನ್ನು ಆತನ ಎದೆಗೆ ಚುಚ್ಚಿದ. ಆ ಸನ್ಯಾಸಿ – ’ಸಾಯುವಾಗ ಮಾತ್ರ ಒಮ್ಮೆ ಮಾತಾಡುವೆ. ಅದಕ್ಕೆ ಮೊದಲು ಮಾತನಾಡುವುದಿಲ್ಲ’ ಎಂದು ವ್ರತ ತೊಟ್ಟಿದ್ದ. ಹಾಗೆಯೇ ಅವನು ಮೂವತ್ತು ವರ್ಷಗಳಿಂದ ಮೌನವನ್ನು ಸಾಧಿಸಿದ್ದ. ಎದೆಗೆ ಭಲ್ಲೆ ನಾಟಿಕೊಂಡೊಡನೆ ಎದೆಯಿಂದ ರಕ್ತದ ಕಾರಂಜಿ ಚಿಮ್ಮಿತು. ಆಗ ಅವನ ಬಾಯಿಂದ ’ತತ್ತ್ವಮಸಿ ಶ್ವೇತಕೇತು’ – ಎಂಬ ಉಪನಿಷದ್ವಚನ ಕೇಳಿಬಂತು. ’ಅಯ್ಯಾ ಶ್ವೇತಕೇತು! ನೀನು ಅವನೇ’ – ಎಂದಿದರ ಅರ್ಥ. ಕೂಡಲೇ ಜನ ಸೇರಿದರು. ’ಏನು ಹಾಗಂದರೆ?’ ಎಂದವರು ಕೇಳಿದರು. ಅದಕ್ಕೆ ಆ ಸನ್ಯಾಸಿ ಉತ್ತರಿಸಿದನಂತೆ – “ನನ್ನ ಉದ್ದೇಶವೆಂದರೆ, ಪರಮಾತ್ಮ ಯಾವ ರೂಪದಲ್ಲೇ ಬರಲಿ ನನಗೆ ಮೋಸ ಮಾಡಲು ಸಾಧ್ಯವಿಲ್ಲ. ಇಂದು ಅವನು ನನಗೆ ಭಲ್ಲೆಯಿಂದ ತಿವಿಯಲು ಬಂದಿರುವನು. ಕೈಯಲ್ಲಿ ಭಲ್ಲೆ ಇದೆ. ಅದರಿಂದ ನನ್ನ ಎದೆಯನ್ನು ತಿವಿಯುತ್ತಿರುವ. ಆದರೆ ನನಗೆ ಮೋಸ ಮಾಡಲು ಸಾಧ್ಯವಿಲ್ಲ. ಏಕೆಂದರೆ ನಾನು ನಿನ್ನನ್ನು ನೋಡುತ್ತಿರುವೆ. ಒಳಗೆ ನೀನೇ ಇರುವೆ – ತತ್ತ್ವಮಸಿ ಶ್ವೇತಕೇತು!” ಎದೆಯಿಂದ ರಕ್ತ ಬಸಿಯುತ್ತಿದ್ದರೂ ಆ ಸಂನ್ಯಾಸಿ ಕುಣಿಯುತ್ತಿದ್ದ. ಏಕೆಂದರೆ ಅವನು ತನ್ನನ್ನು ಕೊಲೆ ಮಾಡಿದವನಲ್ಲೂ ಪರಮಾತ್ಮನನ್ನು ಕಾಣಬಲ್ಲವನಾಗಿದ್ದ.
[ಭಜಗೋವಿಂದಮ್ ಸದ್ಗ್ರಂಥ – PP 29]
ಕೃಪೆ – Prabhuprasad Naduthota
“Don’t be afraid. The darkness you’re in is no greater than the darkness inside your own body. They are two darknesses separated by a skin. I bet you’ve never thought of that. You carry a darkness about with you all the time and that doesn’t frighten you… My dear chap, you have to learn to live with the darkness outside just as you learned to live with the darkness inside.”
— Jose Saramago
I just thought of writing to you to say hi. I know you used to get a letter or two from Grandpa in a year. Most of it would be the guidelines to your future life. Trust me, they would be very useful. I just wanted to tell you few things which may be useful. Meanwhile, I don’t want to spoil any surprises for you.
In some perspective, your life now is far better than what it would be. You’re determined. You are the best student & good at extracurricular. I really admire your thought of paying back to society and help your friends. Also, your ambition to become an aeronautical engineer. But, be ready for changes kid!!
Be ready to take the thoughts of bunking college, & in 6 months of time you’re gonna flung in your semester. Your ambitions turn into dreams and they remain so. Career wise, one step you take will guide your entire life till now. Career guides you to some compulsions and you end up in a position which you never even thought of.
In an entirely different perspective, your life rocks. I’m not gonna disclose ‘em coz, Happy moments should come as a surprise otherwise it wouldn’t be happy anymore. You’re not blessed enough to be lucky in love. But, don’t worry you got a plethora of friends who cover up for it. (Not in prison lingo) You’ll learn that, like love, resistance to temptation makes the heart grow stronger. This is said in the context of – Stay away from that one girl whom you greatly fall in love with, and extremely not meant for you.
Don’t worry about grandpa’s tantrums on watching Hindi movies a lot. That’s gonna help you down the line. You’ve never been a travel freak. But, you definitely travel places which you never even heard of. Keep reading the good stuff kiddo, that’s the best thing you’ve got.
Despite all the things happen to you, you grow more and more optimistic. And that will lead you to the best of the life. Since, You’ve spent near to quarter of life, This is it. Will let you know how half would be.
P.S: Get the braces done or you’ll repent for not having done.
PPS: Inspired from the book “Dear Me: A letter to my 16-year-old Self” (Collection of letters by Joseph Galliano)